i dreamed a dream

有人說夢都包含一些意思, 可能是反映現實生活, 亦可能是潛意識想著某些事.... 不過有時候都會只是將生活一些零碎的片段加以想像再剪輯成一個夢, 可以無需講理由, 有時候人物場景都可以隨時轉換....
我剛發了一個夢, 夢醒了就睡不著了.... 要起床把我的夢記下來.....

我夢見要Order dessert... 當朋友們都Order 了, 收了Menu.... 到我的時候, Waiter 忽然走了... 其他朋友都在享受他們的dessert, 當然我也有分享他們的食物, 都很好吃, 好像有Cheese cake.
我不斷呼喚Waiter何時可以Order, 好像也繞嚷了一段時間, 朋友都吃完他們的甜品了... 我跟朋友說其實都飽了, 是不是應該放棄? 好像是朋友鼓勵我要堅持Order...
終於Waiter 來了, 我把要的甜品告訴他.... 他好像不敢相信.... 再把Menu 給我看著來點, 沒錯, 就是這一款.... 好像是有藍莓的雪糕... 我好奇地問有什麼問題? 他說為何點得那麼簡單清淡?? 我說就是喜歡這個味道. 後來我醒來了... 記不起甜品最後來了沒有, 味道如何...

我嘗試把夢解析一下....
我把這個dessert 理解為愛情... 當朋友們都拍拖, 談婚論嫁的時候.... 我還是單身一個... 其實我也想嘗試戀愛的味道, 可是等了很久都沒有機會... 朋友們都樂意分享他們的喜悅.........
我尋尋覓覓，冷冷清清，悽悽慘慘戚戚一番之後, 反正都絕望了, 不如放棄吧......... 朋友卻鼓勵我, 書本也教導我, i deserved a good one...
有時朋友都覺得我picky, 也有不相信我沒有拍拖....... 其實我的要求也很簡單........  在夢裡面, 還是沒有嘗到"愛的聖代"的滋味.......

好了, 應該繼續安睡, 希望能為故事有個好的結尾=)

Busking Audition

didn't notify too many people for my busking audition this time, i don't want to be like last time...

actually, from last audition... after the failured.... i was quite depressed and didn't even touch my Sanxian for almost one month..... i thought the next audition should be abt 3 months after last audition at late May.
i wanted to check for the date, but always forgot.... once i remembered and took action at the Brisbane City Council office, i found that it would be 10 days afterwards.... huh?!
i applied it anyway and started practicing again....
while i was applying, the staff asked if i am the gal that i played a plucked strings instrument... he remember me! he told me why i was failed last time coz of the sound.... it's too soft, in the busy mall, too soft ppl can't hearing it.... actually how can i solve this problem, i can't use amplifier thus i don't have it anyway...
no music stand for me to hold my score looks not professional also.... Heng said i should remember the song without the score.... yea, i know, but i always think while i'm nervous, i will forget what i'm playing....
but finally i still tried my best to remember the song.... and chose a song that is stronger than what i chose last time....
and i practiced stand while playing.... normally i don't see any Sanxian player do so....

yesterday, Sat morning, 9-11am at Queen Street Mall. i arrived 10 mins earlier.... they still not set up everythings yet... i got prepared myself on one side, tuned the strings, played a little bit.... quite smooths at that moment.....
i checked the list, i should be at the 15th... out of around 30 ppl...
i chose not to sit at their seats, and sat at the side, juz opposite to the judges... i think i could tune my SanXian without bordering other pre-buskers if needed... one of the judge was same as last time, i saw him at some Queen Street Mall functions sometimes.... but the one who i saw at the application time was not there...
many guitar players like last time.... when the judge called the names, some were not there.... so he tried to ask those who looks ready to play....
while i was waiting.... i started shivering and my fingers almost couldn't move.... i blowed my palms and put them inside my sleeves... the judge saw it.... he given privileged for me and called my name earlier.... my Chinese surname is so easy to find it out....
i asked a girl who's juz an audience to take video for me...
i was still a bit nervous.... but seems the song is louder than last time... mayb coz of the song... mayb coz of Sat morning, the mall was not that busy....
the string suddenly loosen.... i heard weird sound.... i wondered if i should stop and tune it... after a few seconds, i stopped.... i looked at the judge and requested for play it again.... he looks kind and given me a "as u like it..." expressions....
i played again.... a bit shaking fingers.... couldn't give the best.... but i remembered the song without the score...
and i've got no idea on how my voice would be at the mall.... but i heard a bit echo... amazing!
and while i played back the video, seems not as nervous as i felt on the stage.... that's really an Amazing Grace!!
a few ppl chatted with me while i was finished and watched how others pre-buskers' performance.... some are great, esp. the crew with a gippy look gal... her voices and expressions are awesome!! the best crew ever!
one Aussie gal asked me if i heard of the movie MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA.... if my sanxian same with that.... i told her mine is chinese and that's japanese... mine is cover with snakes skins but japanese is CAT skins..... i use false nails and they use specific big pluck..... but basically, they are similar stuff....
last time while i was back home, a Aussie gal asked me if this is Erhu.... i was so surprised that she knows what's Erhu....
i think it's really a good thing to chat with others in this way...

the result will be notify abt one week.... hopefully i can success this time=)

what i did with no internet

out of internet for a few days... it's really hard times for me....
no facebook, no internet, even couldn't check the roster.... i juz spent some time at library to update a little bit.
no internet, i did some more other things.... practice sanxian, paintings, reading (i borrowed a book at library)......... and slept early .... slept b4 10pm.... incredible...

ran the dog with May yesterday... the dog, Grace is her neighbour's dog, a 6 months old small dog.... hyperactive.... she runs so fast, it's good to with her accompany, at least can keep a fast pace.... but i loose  my breath.........
May told me we would run 10km... but as a result, 15km... she chose a longer way and got to the old path that we didn't run for a long time since the road constructions.... that old route is already 10km.... hips don't lie, my butt....
and the pervious injury of my feet started pain at the last 2-3km.... so i walk and jogged till the end... i think i can run longer and longer, the pain appears later then previous everytime... it's affect that it's recovering... 15km... i didn't try b4 even b4 the injury, so that's normal for me...

did lots of stretching b4 sleep, seems not much pain now, i can do so much better.

music jam

almost run of time, but want to update my blog.
sat nite, i had japanese hot pot with frds... planned to eat ramen, but we were late, they last order time past already. so we changed to "all u can eat hot pot", $18.XX... okay wor... so full...

we when to Susan's place for drinking afterwards. that's first time for me to visit her place...
since i claimed i never drunk b4... they wanted to make me drunk... but i controlled myself.... they didn't success=p

after saw they have 3 guitars and keyboard... i told them abt my audition on next sat... Susan suddenly remember she got a Erhu.... but in bad conditions... the string were loose... the bridge was away.... i tried hard to tune it.... but not really successed... juz could prelim played 一起走過的日子's prelude uglily=p
after that jason played guitar, susan played keyboard, heng and i sang a lot... i jam a little bit keyboard with susan.... that's what i used to jam with my sister...
although some songs never rang my bell b4, but i think the time was great... i enjoyed it.
forgot how long time we had sing... only know we reached home at 3am... KO all the alcohol on the table...